Scope & J-Miri - Ennui Lyrics

I don't wanna go outside today
Know it's raining cats and dogs around the way
Maybe the puppies will stop me from seeing grey
I stay tangled in the sheets that's my hideaway
Hours turn to days
Days feel like months
I could really use a shower
Startin to build up a musk
I'm innovative like Elon
Dodge food like the plague
Stomach screaming for nutrition
I think it's been like a day
Hate the way my voice sound
I ain't got shit to say
Feel I could stand to drop a few pounds
Exercise in my mind I carry the weight
Cuz the temperature at 88
And it just keep on rising
I keep my head in the clouds
Cuz the spotlight is always blinding
I need me some sunblock
To block out all the exposure
I just really wanna cool off
With some henny and a Coca-Cola
Insomnia is killin me
I can feel it taken over
Hours pass as I lie awake, stuck in this mental roller coaster
So I drink to pump the breaks
Hoping I'm finally closer
Cuz I'm knowing that the casket at the end of the ride
Is my only chance at closure
I don't wanna be alive right now
I don't wanna be alive right now
I don't wanna be alive right now
I don't wanna be alive right now
I haven't gotten pussy in over a year
I'm about to start crying man look at these tears
They say it comes when you aint even looking man
So I'm just gonna give up let these girls start shooting man
Why not? I'm a catch I know it
I stopped but I feel the opposite of glowing
I look at myself and all the time I'm dissatisfied
I go the gym and now I feel the sweat in my eyes
It's real hard to make yourself feel good about yourself
I take drugs for that shit betters my mental health
Doctor prescribed
But still I lied
About stopping the high
I got for a while
But now I stopped flight
And yea I'll be alright
But it's all lies