I am transparent to myself
But invisible to you
Invisible to you
Notification was not
On my device
Of extra problems
In my mind
I'm looking through a keyhole
Of a room without a window
That I cannot leave behind
Burned my death certificate
And scattered its remains
On the head of a pin
Disaster recovery
Is how it seems to be?
Wouldn't you agree?
Time swallows you up
And slowly digests you
In its pulsing silence
I used to feel embarrassed about the past but
I got fed up with feeling that way
Like a rabbit in a cage too small
I focus on ambivalence
I struggle not to forsake
The man I tried to make
The soul I cannot fake
Because a child has been silenced
By cruelty and violence
Please come back I promise
To protect you