Truth or Consequences
Arte a false inception
Honesty won't keep you safe
It's as explosive as lies
And everyone denies it
Anyway
When I do not feel anxious I feel anxious
Not a good use of my time
Internal and external forces are pressurized
Compressing the heart that is not beating
Searching for meaning that I'll never find
Existential bullshit I project on your life
Across the chasm between thoughts and deeds
Echoes too loud to be ignored
Reflecting want over need
This narrative does not succeed
Temperatures rose so high
I was ready to say goodbye
If you don't take the fallout
Then don't drop the bomb
A last minute pause
Less than a heartbeat
Before I took the turn
Kept me from the funeral urn
Was it me
Or was it a gift
Or simply coincidence
Or is it a myth
The thought so intense I cried
Turned off the engine and went inside
Sitting outside under a Bradford pear
At 4 am
I heard a siren pass in the distance
Meant for another
I imagined being the one
Wearing a Marvin Martian t-shirt
The only consequence was a black smudge
Easily wiped off
Like it never happened
What was the truth?
You once said to me
If you can't take the fallout
Then don't drop the bomb
But I did
What was the truth?