Scotty Storm - Suicide Note Lyrics

I live in this hell, my demons never set me free
I'm covered in these scars, that you will never see
Forever locked inside my mind, a prison with no key Now I wage a war, I am the enemy
Do not f*cking judge me, the place my life is in
If you haven't walked everywhere that I have been
You can base your thoughts of me on what's on my skin
But you will never know the soul that lives within

Too much pain to juggle, I had to let it fall
Too focused on that struggle, I hit that f*cking wall
All I see behind me are bridges as they burn
Every single fire is a page that I must turn
So if I take my life tonight, do not cry for me
If I'm gone by morning light, my soul is finally free
If I give up on the fight with demons, you can't see Every painful word I write are thoughts that torture me

Everyone I love either dies or walks away
Everyone else I just f*cking push away
So many people act like they family
But these motherf*ckers don't know the real me
If you paint a moth, it's still no butterfly
I may show a smile, but I still wish to die
This time I must stay at the bottom in the dirt
If I got nowhere to fall, then maybe it won't hurt me

What's the point in climbing just so I can fall
All my inner demons want to see me paint this wall
So many nights I sit with a loaded gun
Thinking about all the damage I have done
I watch all the blue fall from the sky
Do you know the f*cking feeling of a wish just to die
I will only drown swimming up a waterfall
If I have nothing, I cannot lose it all

My ship is sinking, got no lifeboat
Do you know the feeling, loaded pistol in your throat
I know I won't be missed, no one to care
There will be no funeral, cause no one will be there
I never gave up, always stood to fight
This is my time, I'ma win it all tonight
You can call it selfish for the end that I choose
But you couldn't walk a mile, you couldn't tie my f*cking shoes

I am dancing with my demons at the devil's masquerade
They whisper in my ear, a sweet serenade
I stand alone at the hell parade
Take my last ride in the reaper's motorcade
One in the chamber, smoke a cigarette
Sorry for the pain, if you cannot forget
Dopest shit I'll ever write will be my suicide note Every f*cking word I say will be my greatest quote

When I pull the trigger, a tear in my eye When you hear my gunshot, I finally said goodbye