God Knows Video (MV)

What a time
Who am I?
I don't really know but I'm trying my best to figure it out
Where do I go?
(Haha)
I don't know
All these questions they leaving me clouded with so much f*ckin' doubt
Second guessin' my every move
Tryna figure out where I'm being guided to
Is it music?
Is it school?
Am I being guided back to you?
I have no idea but I'm hopin' I'll find out soon
Where do I begin?
Why is my patience runnin' thin?
What if I don't win in the end
Do I lose myself
Or do I lose my friends?
Is that it does my life just end?
Not natural I'm thinking somethin' more
Along the lines of a
As my angels sang
That can't be the way that this goes
Tryna to figure it all out but only God knows
I said that can't be the way that this goes
Tryna figure it all out but only God knows
It's wild to me
A month ago
Going to college
For physical therapy
Until I gained some knowledge
That PT ain't my f*ckin' callin'
I was just shooting a shot in the dark
Falsely influenced by society
Trying to ascend to the higher me
I'm second guessing everything
I even considered architecture
But I ain't tryna sit in all those lectures
And at the same time I ain't tryna deal with the pressure
Of chasin' a dream
I was stuffin' my face in a pillow
Late at night as I scream
Felt the warm touch
Of a spirit touching me
On multiple occasions
Man this shit is amazing
How a handful of experiences
So convincing it could turn an atheist
Came by and changed my perspective
I'm sick of learning all these lessons
While I'm bumping some Jon Bellion
As I turn up my headphones
Cryin' tears listenin' to stupid deep
This pain built up for years
Guess you could say it runs stupid deep
And the answers were stupid cheap
Just had to look deep inside of me
For this love and for this passion
That haunts me through the memories
Of the childhood I was lackin'
Son don't you give up on me
I won't allow it to happen
That can't be the way that this goes
Tryna to figure it all out but only God knows
I said that can't be the way that this goes
Tryna figure it all out but only God knows
Still fightin' through the pain of rejection
Tripped up on if I should move along
Or send you another message
Tryna shift my energy
And claim all of my blessings
Givin' up on that degree
And you're the reason that I left it
Goin' after a music career
Not something I really imagined
It was a childhood dream
That was too big to imagine
I started ventin' all these feelings
And the pain its attached with
Going back to stupid deep
And that love I was lackin'
My true ascension from the sheep
Is what led me to rappin'
Guess you could say this was god's way of tellin' me
This is my only path man
So get up on your feet
Before the devil starts kickin' your ass again
That can't be the way that this goes
Tryna to figure it all out but only God knows
I said that can't be the way that this goes
Tryna figure it all out but only God knows