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I'm goin' through changes
Rearrangin'
It's strange and
It's got me anxious
Impatient
Can't say shit
I gave you my heart
But you won't take it
And yeah these shrooms they may make me levitate
But no drug I take
Is gonna hide the pain
You f*cked me up
But I'm the one to blame
Cuz the truth is it takes two to play the game
Lying in this dark room
All I can think of is you
What can I say? You got me obsessing
How much I think of the possibility
That someday it'll be you and me
Up on stage
Tearing the house down
Crowd roars in a rage
But not getting back my energy
Has left me feelin' jaded and insane
Or is it that the lifetime of trauma and pain
And when you came around, to me it felt the same
Flashbacks from my past swarming a storm of memories through my brain
Wonderin' why it had to be this way
Won't even let me take you out on a date
Pleadin' my case while you practice with your band
Treat her like a celebrity
And she's gon' be treatin' your bitch ass like a fan
Replacing the e in my name
With a T, cuz I Stan
No f*ckin wonder she ain't wantin' me bein' her man
I'm goin' through changes
Rearrangin'
It's strange and
It's got me anxious
Impatient
Can't say shit
I gave you my heart
But you won't take it
And yeah these shrooms they may make me levitate
But no drug I take
Is gonna hide the pain
You f*cked me up
But I'm the one to blame
Cuz the truth is it takes two to play the game
Truth is
I'm terrified
Keep searching in you to verify
My own self worth
But you couldn't spare the time
To send me a text back
Or even a snap
Bitchin' about this
But I ain't got no room to yap
Leadin' my friend's sister on
But there was no intentions in that
Still to this day, I feel bad
Truth is Hailey, at one point I felt that
But as I started to grow
That shit slowly faded away
Got so consumed with growth
That I couldn't see straight
Completely took your effort for granted
And I strung you along via rope
I never wanted to give you false hope
That's why I cut things off
Trust me it was difficult
Cuz I knew everything would change
All while I was searching tryna rearrange
My life and my habits all the same
And once I started growing
In you I didn't see the same
So if that makes me an asshole
Well f*ck it, that's okay
I'm goin' through changes
Rearrangin'
It's strange and
It's got me anxious
Impatient
Can't say shit
I gave you my heart
But you won't take it
And yeah these shrooms they may make me levitate
But no drug I take
Is gonna hide the pain
You f*cked me up
But I'm the one to blame
Cuz the truth is it takes two to play the game
Three years later
I'm reflecting on this
All the shit that I did
Had me feelin' f*ckin sick
Like the time I remade your playlist on f*ckin' Spotify
Convincin' myself likin your music was gonna make you mine
Or all the DMs I slid in
Lookin' for someone to fall in line
Actin like the stars would align
Someone to fix this f*ckin' guy
Who can't get out of his mind
I was determined to make us work
But there was never an us
Which I think is even worse
I used to not like tattoos
Until it was you I was tryna choose
Guess when you're in love there really ain't no mothaf*ckin rules
You turned me into a heartless fool
You turned me into a worthless tool
Desperate for someone to fix
Dreamin' somehow I'd make it big
And not puttin' in the work
Why would someone want this f*ckin kid
They say hard work pays off
Well I been feelin' laid off
Sittin' on my ass
I couldn't even keep a day job
I gotta do better
If I ever want this pain to f*ckin' stop
I'm goin' through changes
Rearrangin'
It's strange and
It's got me anxious
Impatient
Can't say shit
I gave you my heart
But you won't take it
And yeah these shrooms they may make me levitate
But no drug I take
Is gonna hide the pain
You f*cked me up
But I'm the one to blame
Cuz the truth is it takes two to play the game
I started making change
I started lookin' at my days
Wasting time getting high
I'm sure someone out there can relate
That's all I ever wanted
To give back in the same kinda way
Linkin Park, Breaking Benjamin, and Three Days Grace did for me
They held me up when I was down
How can I ever repay?
I started with my habits
Eatin' three meals a day
Can't be six'two
Sittin' at 148
I Started takin vitamins, I started goin' to the gym
I quit drinkin' caffeine
New habits got me goin' in
Started feelin' myself
Trippin on some psilocybin
Rewiring my brain
Seein' flashes of me thrivin'
Started gaining confidence
And takin' back that power
That I f*ckin gave away
For thoughts of a wedding ring
Thoughts of buyin' you flowers
Step into reality and realize this ain't a dream of ours
It was just a dream of mine
I projected onto you
Wasted so much of my life
Tryna make you love me too
But is it really a waste of time
If you end up alright?
Take the lessons and move on
Building up a better life?
I may not have the answers
But I do have a choice
So I gotta move on with my life
It's time for me to stop actin' like a mothaf*ckin' boy