Whatever Video (MV)

Well f*ck it
Here I am again
I thought I learned my lesson
But I'm feelin' like the man
Been workin' on my confidence
Now my ego's takin a stand
Along comes an old friend
Tellin' me about her ex-boyfriend
Been down this road with her before
And I just want it to end
Screen shots of my tinder
Tellin' me you in a whore phase
But when I hit you up for sex
You ain't in a whore phase?
(oh what?)
Yeah
We go our separate ways
Pissed at me
I apologize
But what should I think?
I was just reading the signs
Still I blame myself for listening to my f*ckin' mind
Come to think of it, I do this shit all the time
You won't f*ck me but you'll f*ck a stranger?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
Sendin' mixed signals interest changing like the weather?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
You won't give me a shot cuz you think you can do better?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
That's the solution to all my problems man
I guess it's whatever
Still ignorant to the error of my ways
I'm slavin' away
At a 9 to 5 damn near everyday
Every girl at the job wants me
But they all under my age
Picky with the love I'm givin'
But fightin' the feelings
Is only feedin' the addiction
You take that in addition
To the temptations of repeating my sinnin'
With the other women
All of which have boyfriends
And I used to be the type of guy to try and end
All their relationships
But since then I've changed
You see I no longer put strain
On all these women
For personal gain
I learned that lesson
And I don't want to learn it again
Talking to the one who is my age
About how much we both hate this f*ckin place
I ask her if she remembers me
From back in high school
She says she has no clue
Still we become friends
And start textin' again
She tells me how her boyfriend
Is jealous or somethin'
I've got some feelings
But I know they need
To stay within me
I don't want the controversy
It's not worth it to me
And then you go and leave
And stop talking to me
Leavin' me in hell with no way to release damn
You won't f*ck me but you'll f*ck a stranger?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
Sendin' mixed signals interest changing like the weather?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
You won't give me a shot cuz you think you can do better?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
That's the solution to all my problems man
I guess it's whatever
Through rejection
I end up leaning on your best friend
Though I was just a rebound
For her loss of a boyfriend
And that loss of 4 years
I saw it bring you to tears
Talked it out
And we cuddled
And I get overwhelmed by my fears
So I push her away
To go and get my mind straight
It didn't help that she was moving an hour away
In with the guy she used to date
She's not over him I see
At least to me that's what it appears to be
Plus I got PTSD
From the last girl
To date me
So I move on with my life
And hope that she ends up fine
Once again all alone
I go pick up my phone
And start looking for a new girl that I can call home
You won't f*ck me but you'll f*ck a stranger?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
Sendin' mixed signals interest changing like the weather?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
You won't give me a shot cuz you think you can do better?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
That's the solution to all my problems man
I guess it's whatever
Land on not one
But two
Girls talking to you
But they both aren't wanting you
So what you want to do
You then choose to shoot
Yourself in your own shoes
I guess this ain't new news
First one tells you that she ain't into you
So you step away
You pull back your energy
Even though you got one more possibility
The final girl that I'm givin' my energy to
I told myself I'm done after this
But I'm here
So I'll see it through
And I know how this will end
I'm just too ignorant
To see the truth
So I'm getting too invested again
Back on my bullshit
I invite her to a party
And meet her under the influence?
Yeah horrible idea
And she doesn't even come
I felt like I got dumped
So I pour my sorrows in a cup
Alcohol poisoning
For the next 4 f*ckin' days
These women they toy with me
And I'm tired of gettin' played
I pack up my emotional baggage
Tell her I'm goin' away
Then relapse on my bullshit
High as hell
Beggin' her to stay
Making a fool of myself
So I go and get some therapy
Tellin' her I'm not tryna be friends
And settin' boundaries
When our interests don't match up
I tell her to get away from me
Realizing that I've been the problem
The last f*ckin year
Though I've made all this clear
It's cuz I'm hating myself
Why am I hating myself?
To it all I've become numb
Turnin' to my loved one's
Cuz they're supposed to care
But the love that they're givin' me
Is the same reason that I'm scared
Been f*cked over so many times
By the ones who were supposed to care
But still I know that the growth has to begin
Start sheddin' out of my skin
So I can be reborn again
But this time I gotta do it for me
My friends and my family
I know ain't none of them faking
At least I know who was by my side when I make it
You won't f*ck me but you'll f*ck a stranger?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
Sendin' mixed signals interest changing like the weather?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
You won't give me a shot cuz you think you can do better?
(haha)
I guess it's whatever
That's the solution to all my problems man
I guess it's whatever
Moral of the story
Don't lose yourself chasing after women
They only want you around
When they can see you winnin'
That or they just want the attention
Either way it's not worth it
Oh yeah, and I forgot to mention
Go focus on you king
Cuz you're all in with this life
And I know that the truth stings, it cuts sharp as a knife
Still, you gotta put yourself above a ring
Go pick up that f*ckin' crown
And start actin' like the man that you were meant to be