I saw you smoking at the bottom of my stairs
You were gesturing to me so slowly
What happened to your hair
And I've been thinking way too much
How I haven't seen you here in a while
Oh have I seen to much
Why can't I sleep without you near me
Wet socks on the hard wood floor
Eating rocks with my friends
I don't see myself anymore
In my bedroom mirror
With my heart in my hands
Having heavier thoughts
Than you've ever had before
I forgot how to breathe again
Spilling beer on your parents bedroom carpet
Try to understand the trends
Of what happened to our friends
In late December
And now your crying
Having panic attacks on a public bus
Eating day old pizza
While your ex girlfriend
Is outside screaming
How much I hate you