Sean Makhuli - I Didn't Choose To Be Here Lyrics

There's not much that I know
At this point
The only thing I'm sure of
Is I can't let myself
Fall into the darkness
Hatred is a hell
Punishing myself
I'm just punishing myself
I love punishing myself
Maybe that's why I love you
Won't you hurt me bad again
Tell me all about my sins
I didn't choose to be here
I just showed up one day
Now I'm supposed to figure out what I am doing in this place
It was so much easier
When I had a family
To distract me from my own mortality
Punishing myself
I'm just punishing myself
I love punishing myself
Maybe that's why I love you
I've been lost in my head again
I don't know where to begin
I didn't choose to be here
I just showed up one day
Now I'm supposed to figure out what I am doing in this place
It was so much easier
When I had a family
To distract me from my own mortality
But now that's gone and I am all alone in Tennessee
Never thought I'd leave LA
Never thought that you'd leave me
I used to want to be gangster
I used to want to be strong
But now all I want is a home
Is a home
Now all I want is a home
Is a home
I didn't choose to be here
I just showed up one day
Now I'm supposed to figure out what I am doing in this place
It was so much easier
When I had a family
To distract me from my own mortality
But now that's gone and I am all alone in Tennessee
Never thought I'd leave LA
Never thought that you'd leave me