Second Sama - Petrified Lyrics

And on the floor without the sheet
I mean he was mean
Teardrops in my vehicle, I need some help
Can't look in the mirror cause I hate myself
Misinterpretations cause of prior conversation
Now I can't imagine the depth of the pain you felt
I know you feel you don't have security
Confidence has turned into obscurity
If I say how I feel I'm afraid that you won't believe it
I'm afraid that you are waitin for the day you think I'm leavin
I'm so petrified
I'm sorry, but that isn't why I'm sayin what I'm sayin
I'm afraid that you don't know that I look at you everyday and
It's a shame
Practically look at you when I pray
But I understand if you don't believe a word that I say
But I need for you to know and I am not exaggeratin
When I say to you and I promise that I have made changes
Let me explain this
I made a promise to YAH, that I won't confuse you
I don't wanna mentally or spiritually lose you
We've adapted habits that we don't have to get used to
I want you to know you're my everything like you used to
I asked for YAH to riddle me with leprosy if
I decide to spitefully do somethin out of jealousy
I would make mistakes when my emotions got the best of me
I'll communicate if I feel like my thoughts are wrestlin me
Best to be honest about my thoughts when in the moment
As opposed to lettin puddles turn to oceans
I don't know if you're makin out what I'm throwin down
Let me open, yeah
Just to put it blatantly, I made some decisions
After seeing something that felt like eighty incisions
Nothing makes it right no matter how many revisions I write
But I hope you can see it from my position
I desire you to the moon, over a thousand times
Thousands rhymes can't scratch the surface of what's inside
My f*ckin mind whenever I look into your eyes
Wanna drown in your pussy when you open your thighs
I didn't mean to hurt you, for this I hate myself
To prove you my devotion, I'd mutilate myself
If you think I'm psycho, then I'll get some help
You're the summer to my winter
Baby, you make me melt
Promise that I'll never do what made you cry
Pinkie swear, cross my heart, hope to die
I wasn't lying on that mutilation line
Bout to get some ink of your first name and a little pie
The way that I handled my ex is just not a testament to you
And I'd appreciate if you would stop addressin it, I do
Want you to understand that no one's on your level
Just because I left her for you don't make me the devil
No
No
I know you're petrified
You know I'm petrified