sereviva - Perfectionist's Prison Lyrics

They told me sit down be quiet be good
Follow the rules like a good kid should
No one asked what I wanted or how I felt
Just behave and blend in, play the hand I was dealt
Growing up under watchful eyes
Learning early to play my disguise
I gotta be perfect
Or else I die
That is my mantra
Since I was child
Never good enough
Never really feel loved
Fell in love fast every time felt new
Promised the stars didn't have a clue
All in every time thought it was the key
Left alone wondering what's wrong with me
Learned too late devotion scares them away
Just me at the end of each day
I gotta be perfect
Or else I die
That is my mantra
Since I was child
Never good enough
Never really feel loved
I played it smart rose up the ranks
Built walls so high no room for thanks
I took a vow she became my wife
Still I kept her out of my inner life
Outwardly strong inwardly a maze
Living behind success lost in its haze
I gotta be perfect
Or else I die
That is my mantra
Since I was child
Never good enough
Never really feel loved
I walked away from my first life our chapter had to close
Found a new beginning where a broken heart can grow
Met my second wive a new path to embark
Left the past behind ready to make my mark
Ten years in she makes it clear
Just be yourself resonates near
No quick fix pretense fades slow
Her words a gentle guiding glow
Not done yet but I start to see
With her belief I'm learning to be free
No need be perfect
Before I die
Can leave my mantra
I had since I was child
Finally good enough
Finally feel loved