What is This Faith? Video (MV)

My parents told me love the Lord with all your heart
So I borrowed their beliefs went to my room and tried them on
Hungry for approval I adopted everything they thought
Till words began to contradict what I saw in action

What is this faith
The more I make sense of it
The more it looks insane
What is this Faith
It's not that I don't believe
Just tired of all the games

Like A hand me down t-shirt I was gifted to wear to school
I've grown a lot since then, it doesn't fit like it used too
Hanging in the closet next to skeletons I've accrued
That I try on every now and then reinfecting old wounds

What is this faith
The more I make sense of it
The more it looks insane
What is this Faith
It's not that I don't believe
Just tired of all the games

What is this faith

What is this faith

What is this faith
Knelt at the altar
Stood up unaltered

What is this faith
Surrendered to worship
Came out feeling worthless

What is this faith
Talked to my small group
They prayed for a breakthrough

What is this faith
Met with the pastor
Was told I should serve more

What is this faith
Pleaded with silence
No voice gave me guidance

What is this faith
Consumed with a crisis
Of who the hell christ is

What is this faith