I Feel My Heart Rotting from Being Exposed to You Video (MV)

Chemical diet for two
When you look at me do you see past the drugs we do
Feel like I'm trying for two
I feel my heart rotting from being exposed to you
I'm sorry that I struggle to leave my room
I'm sorry anxiety stops me from seeing you
You could tear me in two
Back of my mind I know that's what you'll do
No idea what is true
Just know that that your words contradict what you do
What do you think is true
Say you love me and then f*ck all my friends that's cool
Tell me you're sorry then do it again
F*ck me up 2019 the new trend
Substance abuse is my best f*cking friend
Substances never let me down like them
How can you mean what you say
If you look for others when I look the other way
I have to get away
Before I end everything
I need to get away
Everything's f*cking fake
Everyone's great till there's nothing for them to claim
I have to get away
Before I end everything
I need to get away
Something made you spend the time
Was it for real or was it to get high
No matter the answer it probably a lie
No matter the answer don't know why I try
I sit alone in the dark through the day, all thoughts of you weigh on my spine
Opioids constantly throughout the day, trying to push it all of my mind
Slowly and silently I will decay in my room, feel free to resume, whatever is it that you do
Before I mistakenly wandered in front your point of view
I was at my lowest the day I met you and then you took advantage so beautifully too
In such a way I could never hate you it's so typical all this residual hatred unbearable taunting me hauntingly what can I do
My fault for settling for someone like you
My fault for thinking that your words could somewhat resemble the truth