I'm Sorry I Just Can't Video (MV)

I don't know how to relate
To the things that I loved and the friends the ive previously made
Just constantly stifle the hate
I push it deep down and I chase it with benzos until it ferments
And make my stomach ache
If I can't numb it then I start to shake, the cycle is f*cked and I cannot escape
F*ck up and get f*cked up
Is all that I am
Every one of my friends f*cking names conveniently all end in azepam
When I envision my future
I don't have a chance
I'm constantly burning down bridges, and pushing away my friends
When will it end
When will it f*cking end
F*cked up relationships hating myself again scheme on my f*cking end
Warzone inside my head pills till my nerves are dead white sleeves
They all stained red dont leave my f*cking bed remove my f*cking head
And i bottle it bottle it bottle it up, just one more bottle to f*ck myself up
Just one more pill, just one more bowl, who am I kidding I'm taking it all
Lie to myself every day
Telling myself that it maybe just maybe it'll possibly all go away
I cannot wait to fade
I cannot wait for the grey
I cannot wait for the day where they slide me in cold and then they press incinerate
I love the flames and the way that they lick my face
Erase my being and don't leave a trace
I don't know how to relate
I don't know how to relate
Everyone generate hate
And I don't know how to relate
I cannot wait to fade
I cannot wait for the grey
I cannot wait for the day where they slide me in cold
And then finally those f*cks press incinerate