Shantisbw - Ammends (Had to) Lyrics

A lot of rappers been in these shoes before
I note their mistakes to pass on the test they weren't ready for
I put in a lot more work than I even get credit for
Don't ask me if I'm doing enough my nigga I'm doing more
My niggas can't accept the fact this isn't for fun anymore
Y'all can play it safe, I think I'll go through the second door
Why judge my life 'cus you can't do what I do, be happy with yours
I'll do what I have to even (oh my) if I'm forced of course
I'm 25, my gift this year was survivors remorse
Unwanted company around me, who welcomed these niggas?
They not playing good guys why should I? I chucky these niggas
They'll try it twice if they did once
Told Sam that's plausible for anybody, this an ending I've seen already
Skinny but my burden's heavy
Karma's harsh but necessary
Adderall to keep me steady
Monty drop the beat I'm ready
I see the top, but I won't be content until I eat the cherry
R.I.P a legend, I'm tryna break hit records 'till I bury Barry
More mature now, but I'm not enough to not want revenge
They hurt me and I hurt them, but when does it end
I must've missed the seminar on amends
I'm chilling on y'all now but wait until I heat up I'll be on y'all again
My mothers 50 now there's nothing quite as fast as Big Ben
Moved out the city now but can't drop promises from the crest
My face is wrinkled out but Zach knows not to ask if I slept
He knows me better than myself, he knows the wicked don't rest
I like to piss her off, she talks more when she f*cks me upset
I had say sum, I'm addicted to sex
I had to do something my life is a mess
I'm the last to misunderstand dawg, all I know is the stress
No need to say your bodies different when your heart and soul is in it
Approval is the death of creativity if you let it
Five more minutes we lit
My Circle small but we fit
I'm Glad it's us like the pimps
Is that it?
What you mean
I mean after all this time
That's it?
This is your last chance
You put in so much through all the doubt
Is that really it?
I'm on my last hope like sky-walker
Coming back like Alma mater
I'm in a league of my own like Harvard
F*ck a charge, on ninety nine like Jimmy Carter
She said"this your last chance, you need an offer"
Prove you're the one like Lelee, Coko, Tamara
I'm dodging clubs like I'm avoiding lava
Or at least until Fingaz spinning my music in Java
Ask TP, they never thought we'd be this epic without a label
Yo JT, they can't eat without me if I'm bringing the table
They grateful but unfaithful, tolerate but don't respect you
Could've fooled me twice, they hide in plain sight 'till it's time to get you
How'd I go from Christian schools to wanting Christian shoes and praying just to still do the opposite of what a Christian do
I'm just here speaking the truth, told her I think that I'm close
I had her take a listen, she listened, said"Ok, you got jokes"
They aren't gonna see what you see, that's why it's your picture to post
It isn't time to shut up and lay down, get up and cut throats
So what we doing my nigga
Zoe waiting on you where's your pulse at? What'd you prove if she dies next
Joel needs a crib and you playing house in the home stretch
You running victory laps when you not even in the game yet
But when I'm in the shit I promise nigga I'll be more than prepped
Some f*ck ups here and there but that's expected going game from bench
Either way I'm giving blood and flesh 'till nothings left
On zero rest, nigga I'll digress with my dying breath
It's time to shut it down, time to let 'em know we down
Ain't the time to slow it down, I think I got the flow down
It's time to keep the sound around, time to make the family proud
It's time to get your talents found, it's time to be that time and now
How long could I really be lit
How long can I do this legit
Ok, showtime kid this is it
Roll the red carpet out it's time to get rich, you got a gift