I want more Video (MV)

I got to figure out what's best for me
Five years later, I'm still perfecting the recipe
Another five, I'm not trying to wonder what's left for me
Very strong line between exhausting dreams and what's meant to be
I'm in this shit for more than some famous friends and expensive keys
I couldn't tell you last time that I got some beauty sleep
They should've never let me speak, especially over beats
These bitches birds but niggas parakeets, this shit is more than deep
Shanti you (Ok), nah, turns out she was right
They mirror Judas, forgive me but Jesus Christ
For a price they going to lay you out over ice
No wonder she wanted out, too much sacrifice in this life
And I'm not talking about that bullshit triple six
But if you put your soul in what I heard, you might as well just sell the shit
No more falling short, vacay's over, this shit my last resort
I'm son to none but they owe kid like child support
I'm kissing every inch of her, she stamped more than her passport
Far from angelic but she heaven made like Barrymore
But no time for her, I'm in a mental war
My old supporters unfollowed my page, my soulmate probably doesn't know my name
Harsh reality but they tell me no pain no gain
So I guess this comes with the fame, I'm just confused on why now
I'm facing consequences, I can't even face a crowd, let alone known in my town
Could be karma for Alexa when she told me hold her down
But if I pay for every heart I hurt I'll owe until I'm in ground
Some choices I might make so we don't drown won't make them proud
But look around, it's all because of me that we're here now
Lie on my name but would you take them lies to trial, perjury's a criminal offense
You might die behind bars attempting to be a threat
Don't say I'm less, niggas know I been real from get
It's not my fault your X is outside off her title with me, vibing with me
She's the one who stuck in her ways and chose to come party with me
You mad at me and not her, that's weird, but ok come get me
I'm pretty busy, one, two stepping on records then f*cking missy
I need to learn to chill out a little when this drink is in me
But while I'm at most your pens are iffy, word to Iffy
The gap between us outstanding like a band at a show
I'm penning verses smoother than silk that's making them lose control
Word to Drizzy, I think it's time to glow
Glory to God, hallelujah, I need that girl for sure
I'm making shoulders lean like Dro, crossing T's, dotting I's
Either do it or don't, they don't give a f*ck you tried
I'm a wolf among sheep like I'm number five
You have to separate yourself to thrive, my nigga look alive
Someone told me if it happens, it'll be rapid
And you'll spread like wild fire or burn out like most these rappers
We'll know what time it is in a minute
My forks still in my hand, does it look like I'm finished, do it sound like I'm kidding
I would reincarnate just to come re-kill you niggas
Me and Skizzy debate on how we don't feel you niggas, a.k.a its f*ck you niggas
What else I have to say
I'm doing all that I can, how much I got to pray, deadass