It's a wash, Christine, if you're not coming
On this final day when I've willed you here
But you must be taking the long way around
Did you find the wrong and only way
"Do you hear yourself?" you used to ask me
"Do you misunderstand what it means to be free
Well, I've been free for a long while now
And it feels the lost and lonely way
But I don't wanna keep you up and quiver
I don't wanna keep you up
I hope you're free, and you feel it
You don't despise yourself as years shrink
You're done with fear, your head is clear
And you will forgive yourself
Even if you don't forgive me
It's a wash, Christine, if you're not coming
On this final day when I've willed you here
But you must be taking the long way around
Did you find the wrong and only way
But I don't wanna keep you up and shiver
I don't wanna make you up
I hope you're free, and you feel it
You don't despise yourself as years shrink
You're done with fear, your head is clear
And you forgive yourself
Even if you can't forgive me