From the very beginning of my life, I saw nothing but pain
I saw nothing but pain
From the very beginning of my life, I saw pain
I saw my mama fighting for a man who didn't deserve her
I saw my sister crying for a man who didn't deserve her
I did
I saw everything as a kid, and I ain't lying to you, my nigga
This real shit
Real pain
Real pain
My nigga, this real pain
So many niggas did me wrong, but I'ma remember everything
You bitch ass niggas are watching me literally suffering
Hey, all you niggas is f*cked
Nigga, shawty
Kultra was the reason why I ended up doing this rap shit
Again dog, it brought me happiness in some way
In some way
For real, man
Hey
Who I am, I just don't know if I can find the answer
I'm praying for a better day, Lord, kill me before I lose myself in this
Who I am, I just don't know if I can find the answer
I'm praying for a better day, Lord, kill me before I lose myself in this
How many times did I gotta tell you that I was the only motherf*cker that you can trust
I hope that you really throw roses at my grave
And you said that you miss me and you forget about all the bad memories and the bad things that I did
Cause everything that I did was not on purpose
I lost myself in the process of trying to be the best man that I can be for my children
In the process, I lost the woman that I love the most
She was the one that I loved the most
And she know that shit, so she's gonna continue to hurt me until the day that I'm gone
She's gonna hate me until the day that I'm gone
Who I am, I just don't know if I can find the answer
I'm praying for a better day, Lord, kill me before I lose myself in this
Who I am, I just don't know if I can find the answer
I'm praying for a better day, Lord, kill me before I lose myself in this
I'm praying for a better day, Lord, kill me before I lose myself in this