Sheryl Felecia - Be Honest Lyrics

It's so hard to be honest with God
When
I think about that I've done
And
I think about who I'd become then
When I would rather deny God to be with a "boyfriend"
There were so many lies and excuses around
Like, "if you don't date now, how will your husband be found?"
So, instead of seeking after God
I
Sacrificed my health, safety, and purity
As a means to satisfy the
Empty spaces of my fallen nature's insecurity
I
Played house with a few unworthy
Speci-men
Who were no better than Nephilim
Defiling the earth
I had no idea of my own worth
And singleness felt more like a curse
Than an opportunity to rehearse
Real love with the God within me and above

It took
Seven years of sex and lust
To finally come around to know and trust
That until I manage to
Dismantle and handle
The grip of sin on this mortal skin
I would always mismanage relationship with Him
I would always miss out on His faithfulness
I would always be painted ungrateful
Make myself hateful
Despising the greatest gift
And as I enter a new year
I cannot afford to fall out of accord
With the word of God
That tells me it's a blessing to be odd
And at odds with my own flesh
To die daily
To view my carnality as something
Disgusting, slimy, and scaly
Something to be rebuked
Something to make me puke
Because, God, the sacrifice of Jesus brought me to you

So, since you won't be united with a harlot
I will take up this cross
And even though that guy is really cute
I will assume the worldly "loss"
Knowing that, in truth
My denial of him brings me nearer to my God
And when I really count the cost
This Christian walk profits me everything that I thought I'd lost
So, being honest with God really isn't so hard
When I recognize that I've come so far
Yet, there's still so far to go
But
Wherever I am, Lord
Is also where You are