She's the Antagonist - I Don't Know Lyrics

So I was putting these boxes in rows
So they could be put into bigger boxes for the road right
And my hands were shaking cause it was really cold
And i'd use my sleeve to wipe my nose right
When all of a sudden the thought came to me
Why am I working my ass off for these
Things that I know that I really don't need
I might as well be working my ass off for free

Oh, I don't know why I do the things I do
Oh, I don't know why you do them too
I don't know

So I was looking at my computer screen
Browsing for the latest thing to believe right
And I couldn't find it so I started to dream
A warm Sunday evening back where I grew up right
I'm out in the pasture digging tunnels through the hay
And I hear my dad whistle as it starts to get late
So i'm racing my brother back up to the house
And everything's easy and then my alarm clock sounds

I don't know why I feel the way I feel
Oh, I don't know If I ever will
I don't know

If all of the time that I have isn't free
If i'm not moving forward i'm failing to be
So I keep all of the good things in my memory
But the bad things keep crawling like a ghost back to me
Because I shut the closet door years ago
Left them on the top shelf above my old clothes
And now I live a new life in a different home
But God I still feel it when I am alone
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know if i'll ever know