Showcased - Lost it all Lyrics

So much pain so much heartache
So many time i put tears away
So many time i didn't say a thing
I convinced myself id be all okay
All alone
I've been left all alone
(all alone)

My everything was gave to you
Even if it means i was left with nothing
Which in this case is true
"The f*ck am i supposed to do?"
Is what i was thinking
Till i got back in my right mind to go get five hundred K times two
Silence in which i move
Cant tell a soul how i maneuver
Once they see my shine
They like "Holy shit"
Yes I'm gods manure a blessed mess
But I'm still an angry treasure chess
Open me up, look deep inside
You'll see the word angry, alone, and depressed

Hold up but let me hide it
They say fake it 'till you make it
So ill continue disguising
Put that shit upon a hanger like the skeleton in my closet
I been looking for that ray of light
I look outside and it still remains mostly cloudy
Pray for some brighter day
Got to wipe my tears away
You'd thing that I'm a nun the way i get down on my knees and pray
Cause i know he gone make a way
He the one know how i feel
Because I, I thought that, hold up wait

I thought i lost it all
I thought it was no where to be found
So i put up my walls
And they aint never coming back down to the ground
Until i know that my heart safe and sound
I thought i lost it all
Nothing left to give you girl i gave it all
And you took it and left me here
All alone
You left me all alone

Two wrongs don't make a right so when you I was looking sideways
I never thought that I'd see the day that we depart was
"till death do us part" we was married but that's what we'd say
You got me home alone
I boobytrap my hear for anyone else that comes my way
I think its safe to say I'm paying the price for pain
Since love and heartbreak comes with a price
And you aint got no change
And still no change I see in you
With 20/20 spectacles
It's same old you but it aint my first time so no blame on you

No shame on you but shame on me
Because i believed everything you state to me like make believe
Tell me how could lie to me so faithfully and easily
Like in between the line i didn't read idiotically
Tell me that you love me but tell old dude the same thing
Glad i didn't fall in love enough to get a diamond ring
But you left me at my lowest
In my eyes your the coldest
Reminiscing bout old shit
I'm unable to forget

I thought I lost it all (I thought I lost it all)
I thought it was no where to be found ( nowhere to be found)
So i put up my walls
And they aint never coming back down to the ground (back down to the ground)
Until i know that my heart safe and sound ( my hearts safe and sound)
I thought I lost it all
Nothing less to give you girl i gave it all
And you took it and left me here
All alone
You left me all alone