Shy Troy - Good, for Now Lyrics

Writing to acid rain, trying to ascertain
A rationale. A shackled brain. St John, I'm glad you came (Glad you came)
Just make sure the mash is drained (Mash is drained)
Sure, just make it a placid pain (Placid pain)
Jack is great when Jack is straight. He burns my chest but that's okay
Slipping off clear rocks; a classic game of who can solve the basket case
Mary, my fairly odd parent? Isn't it scary
Spend a day with you and stop caring (stop caring)
Like f*ck it, I accept my fate
I'm less than great; I've left the race with no lessons made
I confess the weight feels nice to be lifted
But thirty minutes doesn't last long
Then add on more weight and then stack it right back on (Right back on)
With a backpack full of stresses, fears and disappointments
With pockets stuffed full of 'forget its', here's to 'this is pointless'
I miss employment. I miss enjoyment
I skip appointments, so I don't feel like a kid disjointed. A kid who's poisoned.
Is it my fault I paint my negatives gold
And shadowed all my positives, and never let them evolve
Should I be condemned for letting Eminem mold me as a man
Cause no other man would step in for the role
Or should I not over fixate? (Fixate)
Should I just make a quick trade
In this state, at this age, from this day just switch straight from this page to wrist veins
From this pen to switchblades
I've not seen my rib cage since sixth grade (Sixth grade)
But now the shit sticks out like prison bars. I'm nutrition starved (Nutrition starved)
A collision course now coming to fruition
Bars, restrictions, scars, a hidden heart behind these walls of steel pipes cause
A 'cage' is exactly what it feels like
When your hearts set in a place, but then it feels tied back (Tied back)
All these lines are only temporary
I'll go back and change them, but then again I'm not really caring

I've got a date with someone in disguise
Someone with a scythe
But the summer ain't the time, nah
You'll have to wait
You'll have to wait for now
You'll have to wait
Because I'm good, for now

I've got a date with someone in disguise
Someone with a scythe
But the summer ain't the time, nah
You'll have to wait
You'll have to wait for now
You'll have to wait
Because I'm good, for now

Thank you, Benson and your hedges (And your hedges)
F*ck you, father and your time (Time)
Being "creative" is a blessing and a burden, and a lie (Lie)
We see the truth behind an artist, we see stupid, we see smart
But we see movement in the darkness and the future at its harshest
Ever since I'd started kindergarten
My child imagination shifted to a bitter arson
Became anxious when my mother was a minute longer coming home
I'd be a nervous wreck until I'm in her arms and
I'd feel safe again. Mom, don't be late again
If you're leaving work to pick me up, well then you'll have to warn me
I thought something happened. Call me if you're stuck in traffic
Or pre-lie and tell me that you'll be held back a fraction after (Yeah, right)
Slim chances I'd ever believe it. And Santa, never believed him
Just phantoms, terror and demons
These hands never could reason. These candles here for deceased friends
This soil soaked in liquor that's all sticking to my feet, hence
Why I feel I have a dirty soul (Dirty soul)
I try to brush it off on welcome mats of welcome arms, but I've found that the hell is calm (Hell is calm)
Some days I feel contentment at the thought of caving in
And let free of all what I crave within
And hang with Benson til my lungs are jet black (Jet black)
With enough tar in them to build a highway, and let Jack (Let Jack)
Make my liver wither and let Mary take some brain cells with her
And we could live all together because vitality's a killer

I've got a date with someone in disguise (Someone in disguise)
Someone with a scythe
But the summer ain't the time, nah (Summer ain't the time, nah)
You'll have to wait (You'll have to wait)
You'll have to wait for now
You'll have to wait (You'll have to wait)
Because I'm good, for now

I've got a date with someone in disguise (Someone in disguise)
Someone with a scythe
But the summer ain't the time, nah (Summer ain't the time, nah)
You'll have to wait (You'll have to wait)
You'll have to wait for now
You'll have to wait (You'll have to wait)
Because I'm good, for now

You'll have to wait
Because I'm good, for now
You'll have to wait
Because I'm good, for now

Good, for now. I'm good, for now
Good, for now. I'm good, for now
Good, for now. I'm good, for now
You'll have to wait

Tell me that I'm good. Tell me that I'm great
Say I have the whole world sitting on my plate
Say that it's all mine for me to go and take
So why do I hold time and let it go to waste

Tell me that I'm good. Tell me that I'm great
(Tell me that I'm good. Tell me that I'm great)
Say I have the whole world sitting on my plate
(Say that I have the whole world on my plate but I)
Say that it's all mine for me to go and take
(But I)
So why do I hold time and let it go to waste
I don't know why