Changes Video (MV)

I don't know where to start
I've been praying for an answer
I've been shooting in the dark
With all the negatives and positives
I can not tell a difference in the signs
I don't know where to draw the line
So I can tell the two apart
It's been weighing on my heart
It's like I have the words to say with not a word at all
It's like I'm tryna paint a phrase while working on my art
Maybe its the turn of phrase that raises the alarm
F*ck what I think cuz it wasn't worth nothing
Too close to the edge I'll jump to alert someone
Revert to the worst I always expect something
First to reverse, anxiety keeps running
Now I'm... Pacing
The thoughts they keep racing
Problems are prominent now I guess I gotta face 'em
Blatant what I'm faced with
Coming up from the basement
Seeking placement
Making statements
No abatement
Chasing pavement
Lacking patience
Changing paces
While escaping
Flagrant violations
It's amazing, the rotation
Waiting as I'm wading but I'm weighted
Suffocated by the fate I created
Too abrasive or invasive, I evade it
Frustrated with the stakes, translated
I hate it
Since I don't like it, I think that I'll change it
Looking for differences, looking for changes
Hoping that someday rewards will outweigh all the dangers
Things'll fall into their places
Praying that maybe I'll get through this stage, and
Phase through the phases
Whether its foolishness or aspirations
Raise expectations for me to explain how I'll handle the
Changes
That I'm faced with
On a daily
Will I make it
I'm tryna fill in the vacancy
I gotta do better than this
It's gotta get better than this
It's hard for me to get a grip
I'm waiting for answers to solve all my problems
Talking to God for
Changes
That I'm faced with
On a daily
Will I make it
I'm tryna fill in the vacancy
I gotta do better than this
It's gotta get better than this
It's hard for me to get a grip
I'm waiting for answers to solve all my problems
Talking to God for
Maybe just lately I feel like escaping
Declaring deliverance deepens depression
Depressing the brake
Holding on for a second
I question the message
To my recollection
These actions make more of a lasting impression
Like Usher "Confessions"
Concession
Now what's the expression
Look in my eyes
Do you see the progression
Aggression
Depression
Recession
Regression
I'm slipping, digression
I'm stressing and crying for something
I'm hurting, I'm lying cuz something
I do not like who I'm becoming
I try and I mask
Cuz I'm feeling attacked, unattached
From my grasp of reality
Practically
Everything is going to hell in a handbasket
I'm working for all that I want but I can't have it
It's probably because I planned but it fell, tragic
I hate this, I have to change it
I just wanna run away but I have to face it
I just gotta find a way, no, I have to make it
I have to stop applying brakes
I just have to break it
Give or take it's
Make or break it's
No mistaking
Time to waken
Underrated's an understatement
Complicated
Contemplated
Pray for changes
Hope for saving
Before I start losing my mind
Since I don't like it, I think that I'll change it
Looking for differences, looking for changes
Hoping that someday rewards will outweigh all the dangers
Things'll fall into their places
Hoping that someday I'll head where I'm facing
Towards destinations
Whether it's wasted or laying foundation
I need explanations for me that pertain why I'm praying for
Changes
That I'm faced with
On a daily
Will I make it
I'm tryna fill in the vacancy
I gotta do better than this
It's gotta get better than this
It's hard for me to get a grip
I'm waiting for answers to solve all my problems
Talking to God for
Changes
That I'm faced with
On a daily
Will I make it
I'm tryna fill in the vacancy
I gotta do better than this
It's gotta get better than this
It's hard for me to get a grip
I'm waiting for answers to solve all my problems
Talking to God for