I Think Scary Thoughts Video (MV)

I think scary, I see scary, I have scary thoughts in my mind
I think scary, I feel scary, I see scary thoughts in my mind
I think scary, I see scary, I hear scary talk in my mind
I think scary, I have scary, very scary thoughts in my mind
Let me take you way back to the day I was spawned
8 pounds, big balls, two horns, I'm a devil
They couldn't figure out what the f*ck I was on
But obviously it was a whole other level
Living in the little yellow house on Neville
Momma tried everything to get us out the ghetto
Teenage mom, got a job, went to school and taught me
If you want better then you better never learn to settle
I was so young and my momma was strong
But to me daddy's unknown and it made me upset
And on top of that right there I'm having these nightmares
And when I wake they're not gone somethings wrong in my head
Paralysis sets in, I can't move my legs and I'm crying and sweating and glued to my bed
A malevolent presence is standing above me and this shit'll get ugly if cuz I move I'm dead
Why is this demon in my room watching me while I'm resting in my bed
And why can't I see him when I know he's here with me or is it just in my head
And I was five that's when I realized I would never meet my dad
And he could couldn't care if I'm dead
So with those feelings and the fear from the demons
I'm guessing are the reasons for the disease in my head and why I
I think scary, I see scary, I have scary thoughts in my mind
I think scary, I feel scary, I see scary thoughts in my mind
I think scary, I see scary, I hear scary talk in my mind
I think scary, I have scary, very scary thoughts in my mind
Fate and obsession with hate and aggression created impressions deep in my mind
The lamest professions named it depression its insane is they're guessing on what they can't find
I'm breaking and stressing I take a deep breathe and you say to confess in the things that I hide
Drop tears and I question how near is my death and my fears manifesting, it eats me alive
I got thoughts in my head are just stuck in my brain, manic I panic I'm f*cking deranged
The doctors prescribe it they tell me to try it then I go and buy it I'm stuck in their game
But these drugs aren't helping and my brain is melting
It's hard to not do the shit these voices tell me
And I just want some quiet but they strive on violence
Why do they want me to do something so selfish
I've pictured my death in so many ways if you give me some glue I could make a collage
Just give me a gun I could put to my tongue
Or I'll use my car, start it, and close the garage
I'm gonna blow up and I can't get a handle
Will some one please help me get this thing dismantled
I'm losing my patients my brain keeps on racing like tv stations
When you so keep flipping through channels
I think of dying so often it almost is a fantasy
Mental illness is crushing and killing off my sanity
The only way that I stay alive is
Because I have the support from the love of my life my friends and my motherf*cking family