Sidelines - False Shepherd // Faithful Sinner Lyrics

I found, I found God at my window
Staring so desperately
He said, he said that you must go now
Leave now quietly
You found, you found hell in a smile
Staring so desperately
You found, you found plenty of reasons
To burn for eternity
I hate when I'm alone
My brain starts to wander
Sometimes I think I've found
The holy ghost stuck inside the walls
Of my self doubt and self pity
Oh f*ck wouldn't that be such a pity
I choose not to listen, not to grow
By far the worst sinner I know
Hold my head under the water
Break my neck and leave me for dead
Let me feel your warm embrace
Bring me death, baptize me in sin
I lost track of faith again
But found a hole inside my head
It feels and tastes like you this t̶̢̰͉̯̠̬͖̠͓̯̎̊̎͂̎̾̚ä̵̟̖́̆̈́̅r̷̜̥̣͖̩̮̞͌̽ it tastes like you
What do I have left to say?
It falls on deaf ears anyway
I wanna taste of you oh I n̵̨͚͍̗̜̦̠̼͔͎̉͊e̵̡̨̧͈̣̺̮̫̫͍͊̈́͛̍͒e̷̹̦̰̖̦̞͕̘͔̓̅͋̉̃͋͛͑͒d̸̗̊̍̿̊́͊̚ a taste of you
Hold my head under the water
Break my neck and leave me for dead
Let me feel your warm embrace
Bring me death, baptize me in sin
Oh God don't forgive me I'm wearing thin
Sandpaper on my flowered skin
I don't know if I believe in you
Or what you should of been
But I'm done praying to you
When the demons start to win
Out of desperation
Out of p̴͎̬̥͓͍̙͖͙͂̽̉͐͜͝ä̴̮̫͉͎͖͙̻͚́̒̉͌̿ĩ̵̪̓̒͒n̶̨̨̛̘̖̟̙̓̑̽́̌
Out of some sort of misguided hope
In my brain
Bring me to my knees and make me pray
I've used my free will in vein