Simbulis - Vihara Lyrics

There's something about the conversations
I'm having with myself lately I notice
That I've stopped making long term plans
I've been thinking about how to ensure I leave nothing behind
Push the pedal down to the floor
Run a red light no control at all
I feel the urge to crash my car
Break myself out of this constant blur
I've been working so hard
Just to make it through to the next month
This life it seems to keep me tethered out of reach
Resignation in the eyes of everyone I meet
A passive disease
Wash away our dreams
I guess some things aren't working out the way I thought they would
In my late twenties and I'm feeling stuck
But I am craving relief
I might make it seem
As if everything is alright
But I've known the whole time
That my future's becoming blurry
Can't see myself getting past thirty
Even that's too far
Finding life pretty hard
There's a hole so deep I'm not really sure
If I'm in it anymore
Push the pedal down to the floor
Run a red light no control at all
I feel the urge to crash my car
Break myself out of this constant blur
I've been working so hard
Just to make it through to the next month
This life it seems to keep me tethered out of reach
Resignation in the eyes of everyone I meet
A passive disease
Wash away our dreams
And it's spreading through me
I can never seem to see clearly
And I don't remember what I'm working towards anymore
It's been three weeks since addressing my thoughts
Caught and absorbed I'm in a cycle
Days go by forgetting I'm alive
But I'm trying
To understand what I'm doing here
Because I'm sick of separation from my mind
And I'm sick of life passing me by
I'm sick to death of this f*cking grind
Always feeling like I'm ten steps behind
Spending the majority of my time
Wondering if opportunities I might get
Have already slipped by