SinsHere - The Last Apology Lyrics

I bought her flowers today
She deserved 'em
No special occasion
Other than she earned 'em
She's a hell of a woman to stay by my side
After I full on rage with that
Crazed look in my eye
I try to do better - I swear, I really do
But she and she alone knows the truth
I'm not gonna change 'till I see my issues
'Til then, I'm in denial seeing what fists prove
Not much. But I continue to clutch
Continue to clench
All I see is red 'til red drips from her head
And I stop. Shocked at what I've done
"It'll never happen again"

"I'm sorry, so sorry" - ringing in her ears
"I'm sorry, so sorry" - won't wipe away her tears
"I'm sorry, so sorry" - won't help suppress her fear
"I'm sorry" - lies told to her for years

I bought her flowers today
And some chocolates
Last night was bad
We argued and she just wouldn't drop it
I tried to keep calm but I lost it
And wailed on her 'til she begged me to stop it
F*ck! What the hell is wrong with me?
Do I find comfort in the dark side - swallowing me
Calling to me - waiting for a response?
With my short fuse it doesn't take long
I don't smoke, I don't drink, I have no other vices
But these fits of rage render me blinded
It's like I black out
After last night, both her eyes are black now
Three broken fingers and cracked floating rib
Then the choke marks I hope no one notices
Told the doc we have rickety old steps
And as she slept on bed rest, I said
"I'm gonna change, babe"
And kissed her on the head

"I'm sorry, so sorry" - ringing in her ears
"I'm sorry, so sorry" - won't wipe away her tears
"I'm sorry, so sorry" - won't help suppress her fear
"I'm sorry.." - lies told to her for years

I bought her flowers today
The biggest day of my life
I bought the best bouquet around the way
For my wife
Not to say "sorry" - I've truly changed
It took time to find but I can't stay
Don't ask how I'll manage
I want you to know I finally understand
Last week I did the most damage to my baby done
And realized I'm the crazy one
Those nights weren't worth the seizures
And medical procedures, fees
Nose bleeds, scrapped knees or lesions
Love don't throw fists for any reason
And I'm sorry for it never being even
I don't know what to say
Except "I'm sorry"
I hope that that's okay
I promised to change too many times
"Goodbye, babe"
I'll put these flowers on your grave