And so it goes, I'm playing it over and over I still don't get it
Til now I spose, losing friends was careless but with you somehow I meant it
Last words on your birthday, you left me with a whatever
Should we have made a scene about it, stalemate early December
Trying to sort my life out in the shower again
The way I miss you kills me more than missing them
Why do I keep dreaming, that we reconciled
I woke up crying, it wasn't true last night
You left me obsessing over everything
And now I'm a mess again
And I'm not pretending to forget 'cause you know I regret a few things
And I feel heavy
And I feel heavy
Spent time alone, cos you made me feel I would only ever let you down
I shoulda known, why is it that am I only seeing the bigger picture now
Your cards weren't on the table, would I indulge you forever
I wish that I'd have been less grateful, to put up with such bad behaviour
Trying to sort my life out in the shower again
Nauseous when your mentioned by our mutual friends
Can't blame that I am breaking down on lust again
The way I miss you kills me more than missing them
Why do I keep dreaming, that we reconciled
I woke up crying, it wasn't true last night
You left me obsessing over everything
And now I'm a mess again
And I'm not pretending to forget 'cause you know I regret a few things
And I feel heavy
And I feel heavy
Yeah you left me obsessing over everything
You're just a silhouette of a friend
And I'm on cigarettes again
And I confess I hope you haven't found somebody to replace me since Amsterdam
And I feel heavy