Slake Dransky - Circling Lyrics

I'll turn a new leaf
Unlearn how to lie
I'll stay through the heat
Even when it's like burning alive
I'll say what I mean
For once in my life
I bathe in the heat
I'm burning alive
But I keep circling around
I keep circling around
And honey you know better than me
I keep circling around
Circling around
I keep circling around
And honey you know better than me
Better than me
Better than me
Better than me
Better than me
I keep circling around
And honey you know better than me
Better than me

I'll get out the way
I'll show up on time
(Yeah right)
I'll play like a baby
Been meaning to try
I've been out of reach
Bent over backwards
Burying me isn't bringing you back
I beg for release
But I know you know better than me
I keep circling around
Circling around
I keep circling around
Circling around
I keep circling around

In English, the Japanese word Mushin translates to no mind
Or mind without mind
A oneness between mind body and spirit
The inability to be overwhelmed by anything
And the simultaneous openness to everything

OK I wanna be one person
Wanna meet you how you like
But I never seem to get the words right
Cuz I'm always getting f*cking nervous
Seven years I've been polishing the same bullshit to rewrap it up as new verses
Politics and inertia
All this making me worsen
Pissing off the only people in this world that care about me
So I still got something sad to write about
I lost another homie to a quiet house
I feel like every time that I look in the mirror I see time slowly taking bites out of me
The grind tryna take the life out of me
But you ain't seen shit yet
(I feel like I)
Shut up
Neck dripped up like I'm Cowboy Ken
Pre-rolled Dutch in a Altoid tin
I'll forget a whole night give me one more hit
I can fit a whole life in a ballpoint pen, I
Give up the gun
I blew a tire from chasing that buzz
I know you're tired of raising me up
I wish it wasn't so easy to tell you exactly what I know you want
F*ck
But that Julio giving me knucks now
You know gramps had a habit of grabbing that handle
I'm thinking 'bout putting my cup down
Down bad so goddamn long I just thought I should be up by now
Really thought I'd have enough by now
But I'm still running for my life
Running for my life
Never got used to that time change homie I apologize
So just call me when you like, I guess
Cool

The will to wash the past away
The weight, the walls
You wish I could change
I can't stop counting the ways that I thought I'd be better by now
The will to wash the past away
The weight, the walls
You wish I could change
I can't stop counting the ways that I thought I'd be better by now
The will to wash the past away
The weight, the walls
You wish I could change
I can't stop counting the ways that I thought I'd be better by now
The will to wash the past away
The weight, the walls
You wish I could change
I can't stop counting the ways that I thought I'd be better by now