Slipperyy - childhood life Lyrics

St Jose member laying down in that room
Looking around damn I'm really out the womb
All eyes on me look the baby I'm tryna keep my cool
Doc you ain't have to smack me what did I do

Gave me a lil love tap now look I'm crying
Day one try to sell me lies I ain't buying
Not because I had no cash and I couldn't buy it
But since day one I knew you people love lying

I know I'mma be a star look I'm shining
Not a rap star but look I'm rhyming
Not a shooting star but I'm flying
I'm Maria's son special star don't try it

'06 to where we at now? Twenty four?
Kobe year God gotta open up doors
Turning 18 flip it that's his high sco
Can't see ten0 'cause y'all don't keep it that no mo

I don't understand because I couldn't stand?
Ever since a kid I felt like I was in a jam
It's either I work to a T or X out but that's a nice ram
Tryna get my flow but I can't

I'm muffled with words and emotions
Always moving so I'm sick and tired from the motion
Going through bumps like acne pass me the lotion
Working on my mind and craft invisible potions

So you can't see me anymore
If you're looking for love it moved next door
But no one lives next door
Damn, story of my life it hurt me to my core
There's a fire use my tears to put it out drop to the floor

You all filled me up with lies when I was younger
How you don't wanna eat but wanna kill hunger
You niggas wanna party if not then slumber
If I can take away one thing when I was younger

It'll be this
Take away the misery, the stress, the pain
It's insane when I was ten I thought I was going insane
Arguments everyday trauma from words my father will say

And if I was to end my life it would've been those days
They've gotten better but the pain still resides
I wanted all peace but with no peace of mind
You're outside looking in on my life tryna tell me it's going to be alright

It can't be alright when all wants right
Someone gotta hold left to keep the block tight
Am I right? If I'm not, don't get tight
You all howls call you Dwight call me Mike 'cause I bite

And I sting,
But that's the last name ringing call on Ali
Wait that's me,
Wait we talking 'bout my childhood life and what y'all didn't even see

Another thing,
I would remove from that life is all the stings
All the sins that I seen my siblings do in front of me
Yeah that's deep,
In like '16 what's her name Valerie?
On Halleck Street, only one good time like the eggs and the bunnies
There's more bad when y'all will get drunk like dummies
I hate to put it like that but that's just what my childhood life had seen

That's more than one thing
But before this song y'all knew nothing
But that's fine with me
That's why y'all clicked on baby me with the title Tha Ali
To hear me
What y'all never heard come out of me, before
The blessing is y'all are doing better and keep impressing childhood me
That's the change that counts
Not the change with dead presidents we all know as money