Slow Pines - Gender Crisis Lyrics

Alone in silence, stuck thinking as I lie awake
I wish these hollow and empty thoughts could fade away
I just can't slip up, don't know how much more I can take
I walk on eggshells, although they never seem to break
Well my father says to cut my hair, I have to pick the clothes I wear
And choose whatever hides my body best
'Cause I'm gone and pale and small and thin, and the ribs and bones inside my skin
They just accentuate my flattened chest
Just for a day, why can't I be someone else
This song's out of range
I wish I could sing myself
Sing myself to sleep one night and wake up dead
Or how I see me in my head
But it's alright, at least I think
It's all okay, 'cause boys wear pink, right?
My mouth is speechless, the cracks inside won't see the sun
And my body's sleepless, there's so much work left to be done
I'd like to matter for just a moment to myself
But it's a losing battle, just ask my empty trophy shelf
Well my father says I'm losing weight, cause I eat like shit and stay up late
No wonder why my body's giving up
And it feels like all that I do is never good enough for you
So why bother now, why start to give a f*ck?
Just for a day, why can't I be someone else
This song's out of range
I wish I could sing myself
Sing myself to sleep one night and wake up dead
Or how I see me in my head
But it's alright, at least I think
I really hope it's alright
Just for a day, why can't I be someone else
This song's out of range
I wish I could sing myself
Sing myself to sleep one night and wake up better
How I see me in my head
To feel alive in my own skin
I'm sorry, Mom, I promise I'm alright