I've learned to love from a distance
I've learned to settle for less
I know that you will all miss me
But only when I am dead
I'd have liked to hope for the future
But I'm gritting my teeth
I try to swallow the pain down
That I hide underneath
I got high on my hatred
I got sick on my disease
I have squandered every option
And opportunity
I'm a system of failures
I'm a shadow of my dreams
I'd rather died in this moment
Than wait for you to leave
It's a shame that you loved me
I have never loved myself
I'm never more than a moment
That I'm sure we'll both regret
I heard that you stay with your mom now
It's my fault I set you back
Just know that I'll never
Forgive myself for that
I got high on my hatred
I got sick on my disease
I have squandered every option
And opportunity
I'm a system of failures
I'm a shadow of my dreams
I'd rather died in this moment
Than wait for you to leave