smallboats - Sandbags Lyrics

Sandbags
Sandbags weighing down my legs
Sending me spiraling down the moment I step
And I can't shake what I can't carry
Cut the slack, feel the shift
If there's a lever, pull it quick

Well, if it's alright with you
I'd love to come alive again
And in the loneliest of nights
I spend my sleeping hours
Listing sins again
Singing why is it hard to accept when the song is over
When every moment closer
To the next, to the next, to the next
To the next is a miracle

Sandbags
Sandbags keeping me awake
I try to pour them out
But the pieces remain
Cynical grains of bad memories
Try to rip me apart like I'm a Trojan work of art

Well, if it's alright with you
I'd love to come alive again
And in the loneliest of nights
I spend my sleeping hours
Listing sins again
Singing why is it hard to accept when the song is over
When every moment closer
To the next, to the next, to the next
To the next is a miracle

Avenues I forget the name to
If I should lose myself, you'd be to blame
Fixated on a candle burning
"Here" enough to know, not "here" enough to care
But I want to be more than I'm worth
A hunter to a game of vows
Self-love's got boxing gloves
And I am throwing in the towel