SnowiBeatz - Been A While Lyrics

It's been a while stuck in this disguise
Fears creeping in, tears in my eyes
Mirrors reflecting the battles I fought
In a world so cold trying to ignite
I'm trans? Yeah I know, but why can't I have rights?
Truth in my heart but it's met with fights
Insecurities screaming don't let it show
Rejection's a shadow everywhere I go
Scared of the whispers scared of the stares
Scared of the judgment nobody cares
Walking on eggshells hiding my truth
Scared of rejection breaking my youth
Every night these thoughts they torture me
Wishing I could be the girl I'm meant to be
But the world's got its knives sharp and ready
My heart's a target beats unsteady
I open up share my deepest fears
Hoping for support but it disappears
They say I'm lying can't feel my pain
In this storm of doubt I'm left in the rain
In this cage of doubt I cry and I plead
Just to exist to be free to breathe
My heart's full of love, full of dreams to chase
But I'm scared they'll just see me as a disgrace
My soul is fragile breaking piece by piece
Scared of a world that won't give me peace
Fighting to stand fighting to be
In a world that's blind can't see me
Every night these thoughts they torture me
Wishing I could just be the girl I'm meant to be
But the world's got its knives sharp and ready
My heart's a target b-b-beats unsteady
I look around see others like me
Fighting their battles yearning to be free
We share our stories, our hopes, our dreams
In this sea of doubt we're stronger it seems
I just wanna be the girl I'm meant to be
I just wanna be the girl I'm meant to be
People just think the opposite
They just wanna take my life
I just wanna be the girl I'm meant to be