Frustrated Video (MV)

Why am I like this
And why do I give a f*ck
Why do I bother
Even after 6 months
She blocked me on my first gram
Blocked me on my second gram
And still I run back
Like I forgot my phone at home again
I engaged this shit
I'm the one who made a choice
And still I'm not happy
Hide my pain behind my voice
I don't feel like people getting me
Anxiety has been stressing me
I really miss my family
But my life is moving rapidly
Now I'm frustrated
Everything's so complicated
I know that I shouldn't hate it
But now I f*cking hate it
I feel like I cannot make it
My heart continue breaking
All this pain, I cannot take it
Wanna take my life, just rearrange it
Cause I'm frustrated
Everything's so complicated
I know that I shouldn't hate it
But now I f*cking hate it
I feel like I cannot make it
My heart continue breaking
All this pain, I cannot take it
Wanna take my life, just rearrange it
Don't bring up the past
I hope it don't come up
It's not that I don't care
I just don't give a f*ck
I'm not tryna chat
I don't really want your call
I thought when you left
I wasn't gonna hear from you at all
I just wanna move forward
Instead of looking back
My mind is telling me no
But my heart is fighting back
I really f*cking hate
When I argue with myself
It's endless game of blame
And I can't blame no one else
Now I'm frustrated
Everything's so complicated
I know that I shouldn't hate it
But now I f*cking hate it
I feel like I cannot make it
My heart continue breaking
All this pain, I cannot take it
Wanna take my life, just rearrange it
Cause I'm frustrated
Everything's so complicated
I know that I shouldn't hate it
But now I f*cking hate it
I feel like I cannot make it
My heart continue breaking
All this pain, I cannot take it
Wanna take my life, just rearrange it
I, can't, be honest with myself
And say when I'm jealous
When I see you with someone else
That's, a sight, I don't really wanna see
Makes me regret doing all those bad things
If, I could, go back in time
I'd help myself out when something comes out of line
I'm, afraid, to fall deep asleep
Cause when I close my eyes I see you all in my dreams
Now I'm frustrated
Everything's so complicated
I know that I shouldn't hate it
But now I f*cking hate it
I feel like I cannot make it
My heart continue breaking
All this pain, I cannot take it
Wanna take my life, just rearrange it
Cause I'm frustrated
Everything's so complicated
I know that I shouldn't hate it
But now I f*cking hate it
I feel like I cannot make it
My heart continue breaking
All this pain, I cannot take it
Wanna take my life, just rearrange it