Missing Person Video (MV)

Sometimes I be thinking it's a crazy world ain't it
Looking in the mirror, I see a picture that I painted
Talking to myself like yeah I'm the greatest
Until that pressure come, then I feel like I'm the hated
Happens very often it's an everyday basis
I can't stand my look, damn I feel like I'm a racist
I have more around when I'm off in different places
But yet I'm so alone no matter how many faces
People ignoring me, so yeah I'm getting stressed
So yeah I'm moving backwards and I'm talking my ex
Every-time I do I feel like God threw me a test
Every-time I fail I feel like God won't let rest
I can see on my face I haven't gotten any sleep
I can see it on my body haven't lifted in a week
I can hear it my stomach that I really needa eat
I can see that I'm tired, and it's effort that I bleed
Every single day I get more and more fed up
I'm looking for cash and I'm tryna get my bread up
But I focus on the wrong n I don't wanna let up
Now I pay the price and my heads all f*cked up
Please forgive me I'm just going the most
Between my family, bills, my car note and my gross
Believe when I say I'm doing my utmost
But then people need me when I'm working on my own
Now you wanna talk but I don't really wanna sit (No)
Hold me down tighter than a f*cking double knit (No)
Don't waste my time unless I'm gonna f*cking benefit (Yes)
Now you might see me as a f*cking hypocrite (Yes)
Look me in the eyes, I don't really a shit (No)
I don't give a f*ck about your mans or your click (No)
I wanna figure how the f*ck I'm getting rich (Yes)
Cause talking to you is killing me every minute (Yes)

Yeah I got a problem and it's hard to admit
Hard to keep composure when I always reminisce
Yeah I can make a hit, yeah I can make a check
But non of that matters when I'm always upset
I need a conversation I can feel my problems worsen
They prolly think I'm desperate, trust me cause I'm almost certain
I'm asking for a response it's not like I'm speaking german
I'm looking for attention and I feel like I'm a burden
My growth isn't constant, relapse it can happen
I wanna blame others but I realize I'm the captain
Steering my own ship, no one else is in control
I'm yelling at the mirror, you must change as a whole
I'm always worried about a girl who doesn't give a shit
Thinking one day maybe she'll hear my hits
But it doesn't really matter what I really wanna do
She will always see me from a different point of view
Goddamn I miss my brother I love it when we chat
So I can talk my shit I always wonder where he at
I got my little sister, now she think she grown
But she has no idea how it feels to be alone
I see what she wants but things take time
I know she wants to run but she should walk before she flies
My family got some issues but I keep that on the low
If I had gun I would take that shit and blow
People think I'm fine but I'm really not ok
I know its not a bad life it's just a bad day
All of my problems just make my blood hurt
It's endless pain for me it's moves like clock work
I don't think that I can lie I expect too much from people
To always give a shit I always see myself as equal
I feel like people think I should be a better version
That's always on my mind I should be a missing person