Woke up this morning and the rent is overdue
Tell me what am I to do
I guess I gotta play it cool
Money is the root of evil
Hungry I can't feed my people
Hurting cause I'm working hard
Striving but ain't getting far
I feel the fear taking over me
Can't provide for my family
I think I lost my sanity
Losing faith in all humanity
I'm lost
Digging through the bills
Making mountains out of hills
Nobody knows just how I feel
I'm just tryna keep it real
They just don't get it I give it my all
They have been ready to witness me fall
Why is that
Why is that
Why does Zach keep going back
Matter fact
I know this road I chose
Isn't that easy but leads to my goals
Y'all just believe me I follow my soul
This life that I'm living been taking it's toll
On me
I wanna be free
From this slavery
They got us in
Could it be me holding me back
I need to relax
Before I relapse
Back to the ways of a man
Who did what he can
Before he had a plan of attack
Holding everything back
I'm holding back from myself
Matter fact I need help
Lately I been way too focused
Trying to get this right
Late nights
I write
I might just go insane
My mind is going blank
I find myself in pain
Worried over things I can't control
I can't seem to let em go
Going back home in a couple a days
All that I know is I'm back to my ways
Mind in a daze while I'm tripping on bullshit
Blowing the haze
I don't find it amusing
People around don't wanna succeed
That is the reason that I gotta lead
The way
Show em the ropes
Build up their hopes
Achieve all our goals
Damn, thats the 3rd time this day
I'm ignoring their call, knowing that I cannot pay
I don't know what to say
I never meant to be this way
But now I have, fear, fear
These problems have a lot of weight
I know they cannot wait
I know that the payments late
I know thats it past the date
Look at myself have a lot of hate
I know this cant be my fate
They might cut the lights out
Even shut the gas now
I'm tryna figure out
How this even came about
All I really know is now
All I need is focus now
Cause I'm filled with, fear, fear
I don't know what to do
Do I cry or sell my shoes
I don't know whats the move
Tryna figure out how to a keep a roof
And how could I proceed
How could I succeed
How I can plant my seed
How can I not bleed
Damn they about to leave me in the dark
No I cannot remember where this had a start
All this stress is tearing me apart
Shit is hurting my heart
Now I'm filled with
Now I'm filled with
I hope fear don't get the best of me
I wish god was just blessing me
I feel like he's done with me
Its like he doesn't want me to breathe
All I have is, fear, fear