Soldier Hard - The Curse Lyrics

Got to be accountable for your own actions. Feel me?
Decisions that we make could shape the rest of our future
This the Curse

I look in the mirror and I can't tell it's me
I let a good women go that really believed in me
How could I give another love, I couldn't give it me
OBVIOUSLY and honestly I didn't deserve the queen
I didn't deserve her heart, it was the PTSD
That was excuses and lies that I even told me
And now I'm with a chick, with another and yeah another one
But all 3 can't compare to my ONLY NUMBER ONE
Damn it's safe to say I wasn't good enough
It's like I made the winning shot but the time was up
Yup so I just play the cards dealt
And lie to all these women, and tell em how I feel
How I feel for em, I love em but lying
Hit it raw with no rubber cuz inside I'm died
I gave her pain, gave her tears, and i gave her hurt
I made this bed, so I lay in it, yeah this the CURSE

This the Curse the grass ain't greener here
Trust me I know you don't want to take it there
Yeah it's not greener over here
Got women everywhere
But who really cares
This the Curse the grass ain't greener here
Trust me I know you don't want to take it there
Yeah it's not greener over here
Got women everywhere
But who really cares

Now I'm literally with this chick, her head on my chest
My hands on her chest while I'm imagining your breast
Sometimes I sit and think if this is just a test
If it is I guess I failed, like to a priest I confess
I live a life most guys glorify
THREESOMES with different chicks any given night
But deep inside I know I ain't living right
Now you gone and I understand it hindsight
I try to keep moving forward no eyes right
But all I see in my mind sight, is your light shinning bright
Damn I'm stuck like gamers on fortnite
Now you gone and past on me like an overbite
I gave you pain, gave you tears, and i gave you hurt
I made this bed, so I lay in it, this the CURSE
I said I gave you pain Gave You tears, and I gave you hurt
I made my bed so I lay in it this the CURSE

This the Curse the grass ain't greener here
Trust me I know you don't want to take it there
Yeah it's not greener over here
Got women everywhere
But who really cares
This the Curse the grass ain't greener here
Trust me I know you don't want to take it there
Yeah it's not greener over here
Got women everywhere
But who really cares