I can drink all the water I please
But I can't give my body what it needs
Late at night, when there's blood in my eyes
I fantasize about autotomy
God damn these hands that cramp and ache
God damn this heart that skips and shakes
My mouth is full. I bow. I break
Gravity pulls on our breasts and our guts
And we'll never know why
And probably never know what comes after
God damn these plans that all fall through
God damn these things I've done to you
My mind is full of doubt and angst
So I take it on my physical self
But the mind never heals
God, I'm running out of time to change
I can't give my body what it needs anymore