If You Could See Me Now Video (MV)

In retrospect I can't lie
I've been trying way too hard
Sometimes the floating feels alright
Till every part of me gives up
Cause it's so exhausting
Feeling this way
Sunken eyes and sleepless nights of crawling out, crawling out
Shuffling wonders of what people will say
Hopeless ties and other lies
It's coming down, coming down
What did you think you'd see
When you tried to call on me
Sorry that I can't always stick around
Stick around
While you give it all
I'd never let ya see me bleed
I'm sorry that I am always underground now
My pale complexion takes the light again
When did your hair grow out so long
Seeing you without me looks just right
Even if it always feels so wrong
Cause it's so exhausting
Feeling this way
Endless fights, no appetite
Still full of doubt, full of doubt
Shuffling wonders of how I will decay
A heavy chest, so out of breath
It's creeping now, creeping out
What did you think you'd see
When you tried to call on me
Wish I could stay with you to stick it out, stick it out
While you give it all
I'd never let ya see me bleed
I'm sorry that I am always underground now
Underground now
It's so exhausting
Hope you know I never mean to let you down
Forever pondering if you could see me now