Spennie - Essence Lyrics

I flip to a new page to find a new beginning
Try to stay up on a righteous path and keep myself from sinning
But I've been pissing all my money away
Alcohol and Mary Jane is why I need to get paid
I hate the way that I've been acting so I drink through the pain
Just to take the edge off I need a blunt and a drink
Now I think how the f*ck did I let it get to this place?
I remember when I was content without it now that ain't the same
I'm missing presence
But I try to keep my cool about it
So much aggression
I can feel it all built up inside me
I'm feeling restless
Gonna blow up like a kamikaze
Now here's the question
Why the f*ck did I think she cared about me?
I'm missing essence my confessions are my evidence
I'm addicted to some shit it's f*ckin evident
Always keep a 28 inside my residence
My lungs are always filled with smoke they pay the consequence
I order Raws by triple digits smoke em' to the end
If you don't bring no cash or smoke get off the premises
No you don't wanna f*ck with me you'll make a nemesis
I get f*cked up every night I'm losing essence quick
I order Raws by triple digits smoke em' to the end
If you don't bring no cash or smoke get off the premises
No you don't wanna f*ck with me you'll make a nemesis
I get f*cked up every night I'm losing essence quick
I wake up early in the morning and I take a hit
I need something to kickstart my f*ckin system bitch
It gotta be like every week I hit the liquor store
See my cash burn up real fast lately I'm living broke
Every night I hope that MPD don't knock up on my window
Roll it down and then they ask can you step out the vehicle
Six months probation
Sitting in some cuffs
Pissed off at the station
Shit would f*ck me up
I ain't a menace to society only to myself
All the drugs I have inside of me cause problems with my health
I'm missing essence
Yeah I'm missing essence
You get the message
Yeah you get the message
Fold under pressure
Yeah fold under pressure
I'm feeling lesser
Yeah I'm feeling lesser
This smoke it eases tension but it's harder to learn lessons
But I still strive and stay alive for these studio sessions
I order Raws by triple digits smoke em' to the end
If you don't bring no cash or smoke get off the premises
No you don't wanna f*ck with me you'll make a nemesis
I get f*cked up every night I'm losing essence quick
I order Raws by triple digits smoke em' to the end
If you don't bring no cash or smoke get off the premises
No you don't wanna f*ck with me you'll make a nemesis
I get f*cked up every night I'm losing essence quick