Spiteful - Self-Inflicted Lyrics

I'll lose control
Fore I let you take me over
No one gon' abuse my soul
You know I'm just trying to stay sober
I'll lose control
Just to grow a lil older
No one gon' abuse my soul
Ima hold this weight up on my shoulders

Oddity, yeah, lately my only commodity
Take me away while I'm bottles deep
Help me reflect on my honesty
I'm drawn to be, a new man
Gotta be, when the doom lands
Hot for reasons, not for seasons
Stop deceiving I done grew to answer
Questions bout my lived conditions
Destiny was on an intermission
Heavy me cause I'm risking wisdom
For empathy, a distant dream I drift from
With learning, I'm learning to carry my own
Bury the opening, closing my heart to the things that is choking it
No more unloading your pain on my dome, so
Go home, get a new escape
I'm in my zone, got my future's shape
Pick up the phone, find some new relations
I'ma find my flow, I need some room to make this
Expansion of my mental, they scared of my potential
My analytic pencil, dismantling the stencil
Box been broken, why you gotta problem
Not mispoken, proper when I drop them
Bars, and drop them bitches, drop them stars, inside my vision
See through the dark, find me a mission
Keep to my heart, speak to the rhythm
Beat got me living, life got me dead
Weeks of the system, banging on my head
We take risks just to get a little lifted
Then drip writs that's a medal in the lead, break bread

I'll lose control
Fore I let you take me over
No one gon' abuse my soul
You know I'm just trying to stay sober
I'll lose control
Just to grow a little older
No one gon' abuse my soul
I'ma hold this weight up on my- yeah

Life so heavy, got me feeling weak
Weeks of this bullshit rolls on repeat
Feats of the boldest, help motivate
But dwelling on my state gets me pulled to the deep
Just drowning, cause no one around me is staying afloat
Keeping me grounded I'm way too attached
Probably why I keep ending up broke
When I'm doubling down tryna get up my cash
Nuff of the boundaries that's having me stifled
Life coming back just like riding a bike will
Never gonna latch onto nothing again
Spiteful cause all of ya signals present
My downfall, but I know better
I'm bound to ball, my flow wetter
So astounding calling onto old letters
But rebounding with a lot of new culture
It's a new alter, a chance to change the view
And as they standing at the pew
I pray I handle this abuse, shit
Like I grew taller, my vantage starts to move
And I plan to make a choosing
Gotta learn to be a man if I'ma manage you
I'ma vanish, if I can't stop abusing

I'll lose control
Fore I let you take me over
No one gon' abuse my soul
I'ma hold this weight up on my
Yeah