Fifteen Video (MV)

All these things I let myself get all worked up about
Seemed innocent at first hiding out from the horrors of this house
Not letting you in, not letting you out, not letting ourselves get help
Far from the home I grew to know from five years to fifteen
Another ten years on and I'm still getting high on chasing my dreams

Father I lost my way
Searching for the answers from you again
Brother I lost my way
Everywhere I turn just looks the same and no one will explain

This can't be what I really think
It must be all the self-medicating
I can't remember much of anything
From when I was young
I always thought I'd be so much more than I've become
Are the thoughts in my mind really mine
Or am I just crazy half the time
Exploring new realities
To give you what you want
And to give me what I need

Father I lost my way
Searching for the answers from you again
Brother I lost my way
Everywhere I turn just looks the same and no one will explain

Are the thoughts in my mind really mine
Or am I just crazy half the time
Are the thoughts in my mind really mine
Or am I just crazy half the time
I am barely breathing

Father I lost my way
Searching for the answers from you again
Brother I lost my way
Everywhere I turn just looks the same and no one will explain