Steven Wagler - Grief and High Delight Lyrics

What if we had known that night that we were going home together
That I would make you laugh for the last time and you would have goodbye forever
Could we have done much more in hindsight, would anything have changed for better
I'd have shared that cigarette outside and said a little less of the weather

It always feels like my heart and my head take turns behind the wheel
What I feel I can't understand and what I know I just can't seem to feel
And I'm caught in the aisle, somewhere between, where nothing means anything
And it feels like revival and I'm chewing my cheek just to keep from screaming for you
'Cause what would it do, if I'm out calling for you, what would it prove

Another broken bone, misset, that everyone notices you favor
But every now and then you forget and it almost starts to feel better
But do you really feel better, or is it denial
Or that place between where you repeat it until you believe, and call it survival
And you bend your truth til it covers you

It always feels like my heart and my head take turns behind the wheel
What I feel I can't understand and what I know I just can't seem to feel
And I'm caught in the aisle, somewhere between, where nothing means anything
And it feels like revival and I'm chewing my cheek just to keep from screaming for you
'Cause what would it do, if I'm out calling for you, what would it prove

I'll say it now before it's over
I'll tell you now before it's over
I love you now and when it's over
I'll live without until it happens again