stillnate - I CAN'T LIE Lyrics

I can't
Stay down when the lights too bright
Let go yeah I fear I might
I'm so tired of tryna fight
Cause I never win
I need a dose of your medicine
I need someone to settle in
I'm so tired of settling
I'm so tired of everything
Everything feels so damn hard
I grind but don't know what for
Never satisfied at my core
My chest hollow you gon watch it pour
You can't come back once you close that door
I really just can't afford
Another day of all this
Torture
A rollercoaster
Of emotions I don't know
I need to know what this all for
I'm at my knees again
And this time I can feel the cold
Always in my mind
I'm losing my time
I cannot rewind
Ever again
I'm stuck in my head
Wishing I was dead
Sometimes I'm a mess
I can't lie
Cause lying does no good
And you know I wish I could
Go back to when
I had a little peace of mind
What's that
I tried so hard to map
Out plans that I thought I had yeah
Big dreams goals in the bag
Couldn't pull it off couldn't pull em out
The moment here then the moment bounce
Stay a little longer I could watch you shout for eternity
Into nothing but uncertainty
I fold under pressure like a frame without no structure
What's one life when you live another
I'm frozen now yeah I'm undercover
Only certainty in this life is slumber
I'm a busted pipe and I got no plumber
I hope that I make it to the summer
But secretly my mind may wander from all the
Torture
A rollercoaster
Of emotions I don't know
I need to know what this all for
I'm at my knees again
And this time I can feel the cold
Always in my mind
I'm losing my time
I cannot rewind
Ever again
I'm stuck in my head
Wishing I was dead
Sometimes I'm a mess
I can't lie
Cause lying does no good
And you know I wish I could
Go back to when
I had a little peace of mind