Story AIP - PTSD Lyrics

A life without pain, I wonder what it feel like
I really wonder what it feel like
How I'm living now, can't believe that it's real life
When I'm not struggling sometimes it don't even feel right
Wanna live isolated somewhere out in South Dakota
Depending how this year go I think I still might
I carry all of this weight that don't mean it's real light
Robbed me of my innocence the day I went to
All these crazy things I done seen
In this city, not for the weak
I think I got PTSD
I know I got PTSD
Baby, you don't got what I need
'Less you turn these nightmares to dreams
I think I got PTSD
I know I got PTSD
I see pain in every street, I can't stay in the D
Women playing with my heart, the fellas playing for keeps
I be locked in so nobody safer than me
I was trying to play God now God playing with me
Because I'm losing my people
And they don't choose when to leave you
It all feel rooted in evil
Ain't nothing moving the needle
And they be moving illegal
So I just do what I need to
Now that this movie is ruined what we gon' do in the sequel?
(Shh, ha) It's comedy instilled with drama
(Shh, ha) I need a trip to the Bahamas
Look inside the mirror sometimes all I see is trauma
I hate when I do something and I can't go tell my mama
I hate when I do something gotta take it to the grave
I hate that I got free will and I still feel like a slave
I told two people and they never felt the same
So I promised that I'll never tell nobody else again
All these crazy things I done seen
In this city, not for the weak
I think I got PTSD
I know I got PTSD
Baby, you don't got what I need
'Less you turn these nightmares to dreams
I think I got PTSD
I know I got PTSD
Jumped in a gang as an adolescent
Gun in my hand as an adolescent
Locked up in a cell as an adolescent
You think you learned it all? Let me add a lesson
Ain't no love in this world, I know that's depressing
So stay away from people who got bad intentions
And for those who love you, know it's one in a million
And for those who don't know you, it's way up in the billions
When they look at you they see you as another civilian
Some might be feeling hot and then the others is chilling
Some cities got no crime and they loving the children
In my city, even kids do the clutching and killing
They be touching the scrill and
You don't know what they concealing
Got way too comfortable drilling
Cause there's no hugging and healing
And I pray every day that them things may change but they can't
Cause we treat it like it's nothing to deal with
All these crazy things I done seen
In this city, not for the weak
I think I got PTSD
I know I got PTSD
Baby, you don't got what I need
Lest you turn these nightmares to dreams
I think I got PTSD
I know I got PTSD
Wanna live isolated somewhere out in South Dakota
Depending how this year go I think I still might
I carry all of this weight that don't mean it's real light
Robbed me of my innocence the day I went to