suicidemosaic - 5 Years Lyrics

See you at the end
Everybody dead
Living in my head
But I'm killing what is left of me
Funny with regret
Joker in the red
You say I just want attention
I guess I shouldn't mention how

My head is spinning like a million marbles
I built the deck into a house, then watched it fall
Forget me if you want, I don't care at all
Five years have passed, I'm still waiting on the call

Hey
You wanna talk about it?
You follow with no faith
You're like a stalker doubting
I had to put away my feelings, had to stop the pouting
Rising the Jedi or a tide, I got some force about me
Yes I love blue waves
If you're cross, look both ways
I tried to stop these days
Now the scars won't fade, but I ain't done
I'm thanking God He let me see the sun come up again
This is more than luck, my friend

My head is spinning like a million marbles
I built the deck into a house, then watched it fall
Forget me if you want, I don't care at all
Five years have passed, I'm still waiting on the call

I'm still reeling at it all
I need to listen to my intuition more
I'm in trouble, I need Saul
Swung to the other side, now I don't give at all
A punishing exercise this life is, I'm sore
Serrated knife for the bread, get mine, I'm sure
If you're fine to not see this face anymore
You can walk out the door, I won't keep you no more

My head is spinning like a million marbles
I built the deck into a house, then watched it fall
Forget me if you want, I don't care at all
Five years have passed, I'm still waiting on the call

You said you'd call me back, now I don't want that
Forget all that we had and run a victory lap
It doesn't excite me anyway
The feeling of dying to be safe

My head is spinning like a million marbles
I built the deck into a house, then watched it fall
Forget me if you want, I don't care at all
Five years have passed, I'm still waiting on the call