suicidemosaic - FOR YOUR EYES ONLY Lyrics

My fear and anxiety eats me alive
It's like an operation with my eyes open wide
Blood on my hands, I see what's inside
The depths of the darkness
I can no longer hide

10 drinks in on my own, now where has the night gone?
You say I need to sleep more I think you're right, huh
Hold a grudge, I can't let bygons be bygons
Can't admit that I'm wrong

Think I need a better outlook, no microsoft, hey
I'm not usually one to pout, but I wish time would stop
F*cking with my mental, my grey matter don't like it raw
Unfiltered chaos round me, now I feel like I belong
This is your permission to feel what you feel
Even if they think it's wrong, tell 'em move along
I can't be convinced that any of this is even real
So how am I meant to decide what I want?

I crave drugs
I wake up in the night on my own
Why's fake love all I want now?
'Cause it's better than being alone

My fear and anxiety eats me alive
It's like an operation with my eyes open wide
Blood on my hands, I see what's inside
The depths of the darkness
I can no longer hide

10 drinks in on my own, now where has the night gone?
You say I need to sleep more I think you're right, huh
Hold a grudge, I can't let bygons be bygons
Can't admit that I'm wrong

Took a visit to the wharf and I couldn't get her off my mind, hm
How we used to talk about her heart
Put a cross through mine and hope I die
Said cupid ain't got nothing on us
I filled her eyes with lust, but she only loved the drugs
I had so much time for us, but she told me it was up
And what she thinks of me now, I couldn't give a f*ck
And what they think of me now, I couldn't give a f*ck

My fear and anxiety eats me alive
It's like an operation with my eyes open wide
Blood on my hands, I see what's inside
The depths of the darkness
I can no longer hide

10 drinks in on my own, now where has the night gone?
You say I need to sleep more I think you're right, huh
Hold a grudge, I can't let bygons be bygons
Can't admit that I'm wrong