suicidemosaic - Home Lyrics

Here again, with my back up to the wall
I see the bottle, I'm trying not to drink it all
Once again, I'm in a bathroom stall
Wondering how I got it all so wrong
Home is a place I've been waiting for, with a shattered heart
Wrote her a letter to throw it out
Now I'm swallowing glass
Different, I want something different
I can't even tell what's missing, missing
In this hole that I'm digging, I'll dig it more
And I'll call it all art
Hit the button to self-destruct and I know it's wrong
Good for nothing, sitting stuck on another song
Wish me luck if you wanna but know it won't be long
Before I bottom out, thinking bout all of the pictures
That disappeared deep into my memories
I dig em up and stare em down just to feel empty
If I say I wanna go, you gotta let me
I gotta clear some tenants out my head, they living rent-free
Cause a home is a place I've been waiting for, with a shattered heart
Wrote her a letter to throw it out
Now I'm swallowing glass
Different, I want something different
I can't even tell what's missing, missing
In this hole that I'm digging, I'll dig it more
And I'll call it all art
My friend, I'm falling apart again
My habit is to start at the end
I have all the parts in my hand
But I'm too depressed to build it
My future, I killed it, distilled it
To stitch all the sutures together feels useless
I knew it, they all left me to rot
Now these walls and roof are all I've got
Home is a place I've been waiting for, with a shattered heart
Wrote her a letter to throw it out
Now I'm swallowing glass
Different, I want something different
I can't even tell what's missing, missing
In this hole that I'm digging, I'll dig it more
And I'll call it all art
Home is a place I've been waiting for, with a shattered heart
Wrote her a letter to throw it out
Now I'm swallowing glass
Different, I want something different
I can't even tell what's missing, missing
In this hole that I'm digging, I'll dig it more
And I'll call it all art