suicidemosaic - PARADOX Lyrics

There was somethin' 'bout the stars that night
Kept my focus drifting like the wheels on your '99
If I could go back, I might
Just to recover what was always mine
I'm talking about the book you wouldn't even like
If you tried to pick it up, it'd be a waste of time
Like the water falling out under my eyes
I don't believe when they say out of sight means out of mind
Need you in my life just like you needed a crystal to see the light
It's just a shame those deep blue eyes can never see how hard I truly fight
Lift me, leave me, but you can never break my will
Feel me deeply, I know you're gonna leave me still
Vibrant liar, I'll find you in another life
Deadweight fighter, I can still feel your knife inside
Found you crying in a parking lot
You said your family's not alright
Told me they were all you got
As if I wasn't there by your side
If I was the devil I still wouldn't have bought your soul
There I go again acting like you didn't fill the gaping hole
Seeing mum throw back a bottle and try to die every night left in mine
I swear I need you in my life just like it was carved out of my thigh
And if I gave you fire would you cauterize the wound, or would you just let me die?
Hate you in my life just like you needed a crystal to see the light
It's just a shame those deep blue eyes can never see how hard I truly fight
Lift me, leave me, but you can never break my will
Feel me deeply, I know you're gonna leave me still
Vibrant liar, I'll find you in another life
Deadweight fighter, I can still feel your knife inside